MD MD

MD MD. The thought of it sends shivers down my spine. Is that what I really want to be? A doctor? I mean, trust me, I've had my fair share of check-ups. Awkward moments when you don't want to say anything wrong, or when you're trying to remember all the special conditions you have. 


You don't realize it, but when you're a kid, things like this seem sort of silly to you. Back then, you would want to be a ninja or a pirate, or even a rock star. Sometimes, its whatever the media portrays it to be. 


When you start to get a little older, things become slightly more clear than that. It is then, that you want to be a Fireman, Doctor, Policeman, Lawyer, Detective, Crime Scene Investigators. Again, that was either portrayed by the media, or it is a special interest or fantasy of yours.


Only when you explore to you come down to a few choices. In my case, Doctor or famous Musician? Let's get real here, becoming a doctor would take several more years of school and training, but it would be well worth it for the money. Or famous musician, which would consist of what i've already been doing. Singing, writing music, joining a choir. Going to concerts and open mic nights, buying and learning instruments, and becoming decent. That is a lot more of a fantasy though, because being discovered is a very difficult thing to have happen.


Or I can be a part time doctor, part time musician? I don't know. I really don't have anything figured out. Though I am quite the committed person, sometimes I find I'm only committed to the idea. I joined this high level choir this year, that I'm not sure I want to be a part of anymore, do to the difficulty. 


What I'm trying to say is, at least have an idea of where you're going, so when they ask you, you can lie and tell them what you're hoping to be. Or, you can say,


"Who the hell knows?"


And everyone will have the idea planted in their skulls, that you'll be fine. No matter what happens, hold on to your dreams. I know I am.